The Silver Lining.

i want you to be here to see this and every christmas.
i hoped you could see broken wreck we call a family.
i want you to be here to help me fix this mess that we are today.
i wanted you to be here to help me send her off.

but you’re not.

you’re the star we put on the tree every year.
you’re the grin i wear through it all.
you’re my voice that says all the things i can’t.
you’ll be the first to greet her when she goes.

this is as fair as i can ask for and it’s alright.
because every year, that is my christmas wish.